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Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
Ma eating mango on the sofa while watching cruise musical on tv
Mon 7/9/2020 Second session 1700
Sam A in cage pract with Amir. Like Nong O and Yod, Sam A looks a lot bigger with his shirt off. His kicks are said to be the fastest. He pushes Amir to create distance before hitting outer pad. Sam A kicks hard they make loud echo.
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At warm ups Big Papa sees me and says I doing two. I nod. I should talk but what do I say.
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Yod pract with me. I should really clean my system and not eat heavy thought I was gonna puke or worse doing his drills.
Right block, left block, cross block, lean back.
Right block, right knee, knee, right kick 180. Left block, skip, left knee, knee, left kick 180.
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End class I chickened and ran off while Yod disturb other regs. Same with Nong O I saw him coming out of Trainers Closet and didn’t dare look at him or say anything 😅 so stupid.
To make things more confusing Dedj was smiling from smacking somebody at pillar he saw me and waved bye when he saw me leaving.. wtf lmao
Sun 6th Sept 2020
Looking between newbie asst instructor and Aek who sees me looking at him.
Aek: he handsome, right? That guy handsome… [gestures to newbie asst]
I don’t give af. I don’t know what I answered but apparently Penaek has low standards. Good for him but he’s lucky he’s not born a girl. Yeech.
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I call out a newbie for misstep and Aek makes him do penalty pushups. Priya looks at me laughs while Ben says I sarbo. Aek sees me and smiling says nothing to us. It’s been about two to three weeks since I seen Aek and the distance is palpable. He does not disturb me, beyond a feeble attempt to trip me and pushing my bag away while we push bag for old times sake. Guess he figured I’m not responding and why. It’s gonna feel lonely but I have to deal with it.
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Mon 7th Sept 2020 . 1500.
Aek walks over sees me at front as we skipping and goes back to his usual self, stares at me saying nothing. I move around, he eyes me like it’s nothing. Finally I push him and he walks away. Then he goes into cage with Dedj who is shadow boxing etc. Ling.. Ling.. How are you. You eaten? Ling.. Ling. … That gets me in trouble when Dedj comes over to scold me for leaving my spot. When they pause between pract in cage Aek calls me again for no reason. Ling! … Ling! [wave] …
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During Amir’s demo, Aek tells me jab 1 2 , left elbow. When I elbow he knees me in stomach. This is like a mood he’s in. Fluctuate between normal and feebly normal.
Sat 5th Sept 2020
Seeing Yod coming out of mR while I was at mat collecting slippers.
Yod: [exclamation] [high pitched noises]
Wed 2nd Sept 2020
Dedj, Amir upstairs. Sam A, Nontha, Yod downstairs. I saw Yod when coming out of LR. He yells some gibberish and sprays the air. Nontha saw me when my back was towards him yet he called me singing “ Hahnneh! Nongnihm Nongnihm..” Sam A heard him and giggles looking at me.
Amir pract tells me relax, leg must point when kick, relax, follow my rhythm etc.
End session Dedj shows Mobile couple how to kick properly - not kick straight but left leg step to side, kick ribs with hip turn and last second hit with power sorts.
TinyGirl tells us she trying do handstand so I suggest Mobile do as well. We three do together but Mobile’s toenail comes off. TG runs to get her personal first aid, I panic because I’m the one who suggested to her that we do it. Luckily Mobile not in pain no bleeding and she’s calm and explaining she always wanted it out. Dedj sees it and for once he looks human as he makes a grotesque face at us when he studied her hand holding her broke off nail with a black smudge near the edge.
Later at LR corridor I see Nong O punching Mobile arm repeatedly while she says something in Thai. When he turns to walk off he sees me and says “OE!” When I ask “Mobile, why is he scary.” Nong O furrows his brows and says “Nooo” to me. At LR Mobile later told me he took a non flattering photo of her eating and posted it online. This got me laughing and for once actually having fun at LR.
Tues 1st Sept 2020
Nontha pract with me he doesn’t make me do left and only five right because I told him my left leg cannot. He is fun, he giggles at my mistakes and twirls the pad. After session Mobile and Priya talking to him I stand there trying to understand what he’s saying - I still don’t understand. Mobile sees me behind him, starts laughing so Nontha turns around and sings and dances at me. Priya tells me to dance back but why only dance at me what does it mean
1st Sept 2020
I want be a bit like Raga, intuitive, compassionate, talk lightly with eyes but also funny, look out for others important to self. You can’t fool him and you don’t want to fool him. Challenge when they lie, call them out like ex gf that became your manager or someone. Something about him making joke at my expense that lifts the atmosphere (and him) made me think about it and stop waiting to talk to him. I took chances and wanted to talk to him even more.
Current Raga’s WhatsApp description said “Speak in such a way that others love to listen to you. Listen in such a way that others love to speak to you. ”
Idk how but the first day I met him he asked my name, how I’m doing, how old are you, where do you live, am I single, married, bf, etc.
Verh funny cause it’s over the work boundary topic and it turned into fun moments when I asked him back and he made me guess, expressed satisfaction and pleasure with my answer, subtle flirt detection, unprofessional but he was very polite, very attentive to what I was saying and what I’m not saying, body language, never talked over me, asking me questions unhurriedly, intentionally use old school Chinese passive language which was supposed to say he’s very familiar with younger Chinese females which made me suppress laughter.
It wouldn’t have worked if he was rude or ugly or obnoxious. It was overwhelmingly casual. He wasn’t like anyone I’ve met. Raga seemed to have formed a perspective of his own, and emphatically asked my educational background / why I was here, he quickly provided a generic answer (not good at maths ah?) before I could register the question. From his own life experience it’s probably easy to see. He was at ease yet attentive, not troubled by me, and also happy to talk about his work, sites, own stuff, etc.
Because I knew he respected me when I tried to voice my own thoughts, he was listening in energetic way, was empathetic, he didn’t look down on me, so I did my hardest to listen to what he saying, too.
Sat 15/8/2020
Anyway today stomach pain again after jump knee for few minutes… It went away after 5-7 min but was it the cookies I ate? Did I not cleanse my system enough? Idk. First round Penaek at pract, he grabbed my leg high so I lost balance when I tried to get up he sort of lifted me up using leg and rolled me around. Rude af.
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Second round Nontha at pract and Yod.
Yod alternated the drill broke it down separately so I didn’t have to worry. He didn’t know but I really appreciate that he did that.
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Heard from Priya that Noc come back Monday, but in another location. She and Mobil talked about Sam A wanting to transfer to Orchard so he can better focus on training himself but since Nontha is not going he can’t go. He cried in front of Priya and in front of her got sad.
I don’t want any of them to go, knowing they might not be here. They invited me eat with them at golden mile but I got lost I’m such an idiot looool loool. (**2022 It was my first time hanging out with friends didn’t come naturally since it had been years. Now I’m trying to rationalize why I was so awkward am trying to be kind to myself.)
Fri 14/8/2020
First round Sam A, Amir and Dedj. Got Amir, he encouraging but I can’t kick.
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Second round Sam A, Dedj, Dgaf, Amir, & new asst instructor (nobody important)who is about my height and keeps running circles around me so if I get him again I’m gonna fck round. Gonn twirl weave and skip. He’s local like me so who cares.
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Saw Nontha massage Yod downstairs. I threw pad at Yod. Nontha says Ahneh (**Peek-a-Boo), where are you going. Yod said Ling Ling. How are you. Yod tells me keep circle ⭕. I almost put it onto his head but decided against it. Nontha laughed and I saw Yod smile.
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Yod waves back when I persistently stood waving at him. Then I leave.
Thurs 13/8/2020
Late night saw Priya she asked anything new. Session have Penaek and Amir.
Amir at pract he tells me to move move move.
Penaek holds kickbag far from me as we do knee. Then kicks with me 2 each ten sets. Then trips me as he walk off.
Wed 12/8/2020
Nontha and Dgaf. At pract Dgaf laughs and tells me not so fast. I might’ve imagined it but he might have snickered when I got out of breath doing ten kicks.. wish I had my glasses on but I can’t throw jabs if I wore it.
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Second session Dedj, Dgaf, and Nontha. Had Dgaf for pract again he says something like c'mon give it harder before we start. Since we warmed up about two hours ago. I…. tried but couldn’t.
Right leg seems off mark, no energy for kick. Left leg is fine. Thankfully no injuries ever since 3 month break. Need to recheck my expiry date I’m not sure what to do from then on need to evaluate my list..
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Dgaf saw me looking over while he give prettybraids girl pract , which is interesting because I don’t think I’m doing anything wrong or having progress.
Tue 11/8/2020
Nong O, Yod, P. My favourite. Penaek told at at entrance I’m late, class over, nobody around. Snatches my shirt off shoulder as he bluffs me.
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Yod sees me behind him otw to LR he says Ling Ling with more energy and enthusiasm and what he said idk jumbled Thai but he laughed.
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Later P sits at pillar where I’m at, sprays deodorant at my leg, Nong O saw it. P makes me carry weights to box for being late, Nong O added on to the fun, he too gave me weights. Nong O saw me as he collecting skiprope he said ayy.. Maybe he’s trying to warm up to me eep idk. Had Nong O at pract yeah usual quiet yeah but ok I like.
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Second session Yod, Dedj, Dgaf. Dedj tells me put bag away from getting stepped on not unkindly. Also tells me go pillar and laughs.
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Yod says something intelligible about me standing at proper spot after I hide behind him as he did count. I just like him and looked at him curious. He gave me a light kick bop at my leg as we stretch.
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Dgaf at pract getting immune to my push kick I need kick harder.
Mon 10/8/2020
Late night with P. Fun. Penaek taught us 12, leap back to avoid hook , X .
Later I accidentally hit Yod when he saw me he smiled and waved while I threw my glove at him .. sorry sorry sorry Kru Yod
Sun 9/8/2020
Amir, Yod and P. I had Yod at pract.
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Yod back to normal I saw him smacking people hard with pads while they were distracted. He even hit me and turned side facing right holding pads up like play fight was pract.
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At pract I had Yod he turned 180° I was confused thought he was taking a pause but he was waiting for me to turn and kick.. he laughed..
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Later another joke he commanded me go to this pillar then the opposite pillar then this pillar again. Everything feels as it did before.